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Wednesday, 21 October 2009

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World of Warcraft: Wrath of the Lich King Expansion Pack
By Blizzard Entertainment
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Rant

ok, to begin with.
I think i have another few xanga's here that i don't know how to delete. Thats how i ended up coming back here. I read allot of the content in them and wow...i was really immature haha. it amazed me. I've changed so much....well anyways
I'm not sure if anyone will ever read these...or find them...but if you do..hi there!!! Also don't sit here and bash me...if your going to bash just go away ^.^

recently its been cold in avon park, where i live. as most of my friends and family know i left my fiance of 2 years, richard, and came back to my old town to live with my high school sweetheart david. Then it seemed like an amazing idea...but now i don't know. All david and i do is fight, and i'm starting to miss every little thing about richard....of course i'm not telling david this because he'll just yell at me and tell me to get the hell out of his house. But i cant help but let my mind wander in the past...especially since its getting close to richards birthday and what would have been our 3 year anniversary. I do miss him...immensely and now that i cant even so much as talk to him...it kills me. I love david, don't get me wrong but i do miss richards friendship, and the way he used to treat me. I sound spoiled when i ask david if we can do things i want to, or eat foods i like for a change...but richard never seemed to mind. I guess men are all different. Maybe i'm just too sensitive. I need to toughen up huh?
I don't know if davits the one for me, i don't know if richard was the one for me...but all i really want right now is my own space. I don't get enough hours at work to get my own place so living with david is kinda what i have to do. my parents are having their own problems at the moment and i don't want to get in their way. I just wish i had some guidance...i wish david would treat me better and stop saying i'm being a brat and that i need to grow up. I think i'm grown up enough for right now. Being bitched at is not something anyone enjoys...I think he takes my emotions for granted. If you have positive feedback on this...go ahead and comment.
i'm going to bed. goodnight any who read this.

-Ces